The Zodiac Story ○

Aries The Bloodstone of Creation 

‘Before the beginning, there was darkness. Large silence floating peace. There was nothing missing and nothing manifested yet. It was emptiness containing all potentials hidden inside of its self. The realm of everythingness. - But the Darkness was bored, there was nothing causing her to grow, to evolve and expand or wonder. Forces of the Universe decided to step in and open the realm of thoughts to her. As she hovered around she suddenly got an idea. ‘ What, If I could exist? ‘ this original thought appeared as a little light in front of her. It was her first baby - A spark of pure, raw energy. This energy ball immediately started to move forward with a need to survive, to express its self and to live. Darkness called her a Desire. ~

Desire went across space and entered the Earth, as she penetrated the atmosphere she started to burn. She landed in fire and took a form of a wild animal - The Ram whose energy was the closest match to hers. Majestic Ram became a symbolic carer of this energetic imprint what we call ARIES ‘
Aries is the first to be born and the first sign in a Zodiac. His element is fire and his raw, pure energy rages forward – looking for something new to explore and conquer. Aries is the prototype of a man and masculinity. The first to walk, the first to scream the first to fight.

Aries symbolizes the free will and individual choice. Aries desires to create and preserve life in every form. To move, to dance, to express, to create. Challenge them to compete and you will get the best out of them. There is nothing that can stop a running Aries, they’ll break all obstacles with their head. - This is a symbolism from nature where we can see Aries bangs its head with an enemy. If we look deeper, what this truly means is that Aries using the force of the mind – decision, power of will and thought to resist.

Aries is a leader with the red flag who takes upon himself the quest of adventure and exploration. Being the first and lead others to new lands. He has no time to waste, there is so much to experience and so much passion to fulfil. There are no excuses with Aries, they see life simple and yet many people have a hard time to figure them out. They don’t talk they do, they don’t wait they make and they don’t need you but you can join. If you can dance to their drum and stay honest and open Aries will always be by your side.

They believe in them self and life’s natural curve. They awaken on a very basic level, but the most profound. When others go crazy by altering themselves, perfect themselves and waiting for the right moment and right person and praying to God. Aries experiencing life in its basic animalistic most human way possible. ‘ We don’t need anything more than what we have and who we are right now. That is enough. We just need to show up and live to the fullest. That’s the best way how to give our gratitude to life its self. ‘

There is no game what you can play on Aries. They value truth, integrity and actions. You can say whatever you want and promise them a la-la land. But what you do speaks louder for them. Originality runs through their veins, passion bursting through their chest. Too busy and so little time. They are funny, crazy and artistically talented, honest and many times a child-like fool who wants to laugh and play as much as possible. Often sensitive to life - vegetarian, vegans and interested in psychology, environment and philosophy.

The Ram is connected with the planet Mars – From Greek Mythology connected to ARES Bloodthirsty warrior, who battled for pure pleasure. If we look at his offspring today, we can see this trait in many manifestations from the roughest to the mildest– A person who loves to fight, to create a conflict, to be violent, destructive, reckless, forceful, obsessive and vicious. A wild individual who doesn’t feel a connection to life and wants to take whatever he desires. Pain can be the pleasure and scars are a note of pride. Even ladies can have a dirty mouth or fast fists when Mars is their way. Those beautiful provocative girls who get drunk and push a man down the stairs... So many times Aries are attracted to the ‘ Bad Boy ‘ or a ‘Bad Bitch ‘ type of a person cause that's what makes them desirable. The issues, the fight, the pain and the misery. This all can be a big turn on and spark into a long lustful affair.

The other side of an Aries is the one who loves a challenge. Someone to respect and find always intriguing. Imagine Aries as a fire place you can only keep their focus and interest by being your own person and keep adding wood into the fire place. They want to be fully accepted with no hidden agenda. Take it to leave its style. They are very inspirational for others and they are great motivators just be living their own passion according to their own rules. They are brave and need friends who can appreciate their uniqueness. Easy going romantic relationships where the other person manages to feel like a never-ending hill, so they always want more. Love for them means to feel loved with no expectations. They want to be loved as little newborn babies. Fully for who they are and not for what they can do.
Aries just simply wants to feel, that the very existence is your source of joy.

Altair ~

• The Physical Body in Astrology Vol II. •

In my Article about The Language of the Physical Body, I brought the idea about what illness means and how to track the core of it and how to heal. Now I would love to show you how the Physical body correlates with our Astrology :)

In Astrology, we have a lot to talk about but because I am a good Capricorn I will first talk about Physical Matters and the Physical Body before I fly to stars with you ;)

                                                 Let's dive than to a basic division of Planets and Body Parts ~ 

Keep in mind that this is a General Division with possible manifestation written with love to deepen your knowledge.

MARS & PLUTO ( Aries Scorpio ) ~ Self - Existence - Decision - Passion ~ THE HEAD, FACE, EYES - The Energy level, Vitality, Blood, Joy from Life, Lust for Life, Willingness to live, to survive to Be and to be Authentic.

Mars manifests also as Cuts, rips, burns, infection, fever, redness, blush, blood issues, pressure, overuse, burnout, inflammation, fat burning, extreme sports desire and injuries, anger, aggression, injuries of the head, fast injuries and accidents like fall, car crash, adrenaline, sexual drive and bites from animals. UV and X-Ray destructions...

VENUS ( Taurus Libra ) ~ Materia - Physical Expression - Enjoyment of Visuals, taste, smell, touch, Sight, Mouth, Swallowing, The Throat, Voice, Self Expression, Sound, Manifestation, Possessions,
Creation of such. Build, create, form, express in forms of art, melody, manual skills, natural ways of healing. Kidneys, skin, lower back, buttocks.

Can manifests in body as : Incorrection of Vision, voice issues, mute, lost voice, sore throat, through illness, swallowing issues, lost of taste, taste for life, more prone to be overweight, lazy, slow, slowly developing illnesses and hardly getting rid of them, strong root in health, teeth issues, color-blindness, slow metabolism, stiffness, food intolerance, allergies, issues with food such as bulimia, anorexia...

MERCURY ( Gemini Virgo ) ~ Speach - Expressive movements with hands - Nerves, nervous system, chest, lungs, hands, fingers. Brain, logic, analysing and manifesting. Speech and communication. Breathing organs, oxygen in the body. Communication of Brain and Body. Digestive system - intestines and the spleen. Especially people of Virgo are the most health-conscious people.

Can manifest in a body as: With Mercury, the mind can create every possible illness and therefore its crucial to train the main to be aware and not spin into developing the pattern of always seeing yourself as sick and unwell. / Digestive issues, shallow sleep, lips infections - herpes, aftas, nervous breakdown, rush, skin issues, language issues, dyslexia, anxiety, lungs issues - especially from smoking, headaches from keep over-thinking, nervousness, panic, mental health issues, deaf or muted.

JUPITER & NEPTUNE ( Sagittarius Pisces ) ~ Faith - Belief - Philosophy - Purpose - Teaching and Knowledge. ~ Hips, Thighs, legs, Liver, veins, sacral region. Feet and toes, lymphatic system, body fat.

Can manifest in the body as: Wide hips, easy spread of toxins, longer lasted illness, or overgrowth of bacterias, infections or inflammations, blue or purple veins, thin blood, liver disease, chubbiness or overweight, thick legs or deformed toes. Issues with walking smoothly - ' Duck walk ' or any pain and issues with feet. Swollen body parts. Tiredness and fatigue, cold feet. Epilepsy, drug addictions, hallucinations, food poisoning, insomnia, poisonous animals bites.

SATURN AND URANUS ( Capricorn Aquarius ) ~ Structure - Perfection - Stability and Wisdom. ~ The skeleton, bones, patterns, teeth, joints, hair, nails, skin - whole body suit, veins, ankles, circulatory system.

Can manifest as: Weak teeth, thin hair, weak nails, if the skeleton is strong then the twisted ankle, sprains, dislocations of knees, knee issues, fall out hair, skin allergy, pale sensitive skin, dry skin or mouth, blocked backbone, vertebrae issues, sore muscles, broken bones, having issues to move. Varicose veins, atherosclerosis, heart disease, Heart Attacks - Arhytmics of heart. 

SUN ( Leo ) ~ Love, Centre, Warmth, Act and Perform. ~ Heart, vena cava, Spine, spinal column, upper back, thymus gland. 

Can manifest as: Eyes problems, heart disease, blood circulation, numbness and pain in the back, spine injuries - loss of control, unconscious, problems to walk, can't feel the body parts, less control of the bladder, motor functions, senses. 

MOON ( Cancer ) ~ Intuition - Emotions - Gut and  Children. ~ Chest, Breasts, Stomach. 

Can manifest in the body as Skin sensitivity, digestive issues, bloating, hunger, cold, emotional changes, food sensitivities, drug-sensitive, cancer, maniac disorder, heartburn, chest pressure, chest heaviness, panic attacks, nervousness, allergies, lactose intolerant etc, brests deformation, stomach fat, aggression, HSP.

Note: This doesn't mean that any of possible manifestations of these planets must be manifested in a Sun Signs its self. To be diagnosed with anything is a much more complex situation and must be taken care of on all layers of existence - As Physical as well as Metaphysical. 

This article is written to give a certain wider understanding of Astrology and attached body parts in symbolism. 

Your
Altair ~

◘ The Language of The Physical Body Vol I. ◘

                                                                                                     Once I heard...
                           

                                                           '' The best doctor is You, and the best medicine is Love. '' 

             

I've got awaken to my Physical Body when I discovered it talks to me. The pain talks. Body is alive with the best intention for my life and highest good. Body is borrowed shell from the Mother Earth,  one day will be returned and I wanna make sure with my post that I do my best to explain to you how your body talks to you.
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I was unconscious similarly to everyone else about what an amazing miracle a physical body really is and how to take care of it. It was here when I was born and I felt it as the most ordinary part of being alive. When I heard people say something about health and physical wellness I rolled my eyes on them a very long time. I was lucky I have never been sick with something serious and that just contributed to my lack of gratitude in a daily attitude.
I wasn't treating it any better than people around me and even tho I never smoked, drunk alcohol or took any drugs, I haven't take care of it properly. Almost all the time I ignored its silent speaking every single day till it breaks down with urgency.

I learned that we treat ourselves when we get sick as we were treated as kids.
(It is called an internalised parent.)
Just remember how your parents reacted when you got sick? Did they say something like:
''Oh no this really isn't a good time to be sick. '' or ''I don't care you have to go to school. '
If so, that is most probably your own subconscious treatment when something goes off with you.
And that's where we do it all wrong.

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There is no single event in our Physical Body which would not reflect a deeper reason within us.
There is no pain on the outside without the pain inside.
More simple?
The body speaks feelings.

The body was designed to mirror our internal issues for us to understand where we go south from our true Authenticity and where we bulldoze our sense of self. Therefore it is crucial for us to turn inside to listen to it and figure out what can we do in order to heal.

Now I use my own story to illustrate my first wake up to alternative healing.

It was 2010 when I have gotten ill with heavy flu which took over my body pretty hard. I was feeling like I am dying my eyes were red, I couldn't move any direction to ease my body, my throat was sore I had pain in every bit of my body and temperature made me almost hallucinate.
I thought I will need some antibiotics and two weeks in bed at least.
I wanted to distract myself but I was unable to do anything except dying in my bed.
I decided that I have to figure out what I have done that I deserved this. I decided to pick from
Tarot card, perhaps they will tell me some deeper insight on what is going on right now.
I opened the website I chose a deck of cards with Animal Medicine. I set the intention that I wish to understand the reasons for this illness and also what I can do to help myself to heal.
I remember reading a few cards and feeling the warmth around my chest. I could recognise the hidden meanings of my illness and the themes of the cards concerned.
Next day I woke up and I felt 70% better. I was amazed cause it's not my typical healing scenario at all. That day I told myself that I now see what was the issue and I promised to listen more.
I stopped eating random painkillers and many flues I went without any medical help.
And these days I am fully away of them, and even tho if something happens to me and I go to GP or a to an Emergency I became a match to doctors who refuse to give me pills and tell me something more insightful about the condition I have!

Medicaments are the chemical bomb which just numbs our emotional body so it loses its connection with the physical. They ONLY suppressing the illness further down it doesn't heal anything!
We eat pills like sweets just because we don't want to listen to ourselves, or we don't have the time or it is inconvenient to have this situation right now... right?

We rather than question our behaviour say: 'Nah, it's the weather.' Or ' My friend was sick so I got it from him. ' But the truth is that you must be already out of alignment in your body and your immunity is weaker so you are a perfect match for the sickness.
We need to understand that our Physical Body is the last piece of a chain when it comes to the manifestation of physical symptoms of the illness. First, we need to give rise to certain ideas, thoughts, beliefs which feels negative to us and repeat it long enough to create a spinning pattern, which will start shrinking the energy in the body and manifest in a specific issue.
It can be as small as a red spot on our hands. Or as huge as life-threatening Cancer.
But no matter how small or how big the issue is it's always started with US and WE can heal it too ;)

I. If we don't eliminate the cause of the issue what caused this illness - we will get sick again.

II. Bacterias don't cause the illness, but they trigger the body to come to enlightenment again.
     ( The process of healing )

So how to hear your  Body and How to Heal?

The first step is accurate diagnosis so you can find metaphysical reasons to it correctly. 

I. Enable your body to feel the symptoms cause you will need to feel it in order to track their origin.
If you suppress them it's not healing it is the energy of not caring, unwillingness to feel and abandonment. ( If you are reading this article till here I am sure that part of you doesn't want to do that anymore )

II. Release the resistance what you have towards the illness and try to adopt a state of curiosity towards it and it's the message. Validate it and give it permission to be there in the first place. Rejection of the illness is very stressful to the body. Imagine how bad you would feel about the reaction from loved once.
It is a rejection of manifestation of something that body accepted to manifest for your highest good.

III. Body is your best friend who acts only in accordance with your highest benefit!

IV. Think about your negative feelings, anger, sadness, feelings of aloneness, powerlessness and issues in your life what you feel are unbearable, intolerable, un-resolved, where are you going against your gut? Where do you might be crossing your own lines? What it is that you don't have to be doing when you are sick? For what things u can use it as an excuse?

V. Every part of our body is divided into its own theme and some issues are harder to decode but EVERYTHING is healable. And you have the power to get yourself out of it.
You have to want to release the causes of illnesses and their positive benefits also in order to heal.
Positive benefits are psychological glue to manifesting the issue such as: ' As long as I am sick in bed there is someone who is here with me, taking care of me so I am not alone. ' so your Positive Benefit is the connection you getting out of this situation and you have to be willing to let go of it.
This is a stage when you have to face yourself and be ready to see even uncomfortable truth.

What is my process of healing?

I. When I get sick I usually swear a lot, I complain and I am walking through the entire household wishing to burn the flat down... ( ^^' )
Then I face up to myself and say to my body that I am thankful for this pain or injury and I go into myself to find its core.

II. As I wrote earlier at my beginnings I used cards to help me find some topics of what this situation is coming from - You can use it also. ( Crowley tarot - The Mirror of Soul is intelligent enough for this work and if you are a very aware person you can use Osho Zen Tarot Cards. )

Do not be discouraged if you feel it's taking some time to understand yourself.

III. Also, I always google Metaphysical reasons of XY I have and I try to read as much from other people who deal with this issue if there is anything that resonates with me. You will feel it when you will see it - That's the reason what's relevant for you. I also have a book of Illness and its symbolism which also helped me a few years. / I also eat different foods and I help myself with music 
(especially from Mars musicians- viz soon in Article about Music ) probiotics and fruits. /

But my favourite and most efficient hack I am using is a channelling. It goes like :

IV. You can close your eyes and feel the pain and then ask it what does it needs. You might get visuals, emotions or words from it. Just let it speak with the attitude of care. You are more likely to find the answers and you might think consciously that this can't be true, but you have to hear what your body thinks about that. / You might think that you are not hard on yourself in the gym, but your body might be far beyond its limits /
It's vital if someone assists you so it's like dialogue and you can only focus on what's the body says. And someone can validate its feelings for you. When you know what is the cause find solutions and do it. Keep your own promises to your body. To your self.

I also recently managed to meet a soul mate woman who healed me on a meta(physical) plane from old outlived traumas and pain from childhood around my physical body and food. After this, I went to a Healer for an emotional detox stored in the physical body. That was a session for a couple of hours where I released a lot of my life traumas and pain buried in my body. I already feel I am connecting more with love towards my body and I am willing to do anything to maintain and develop this relationship with myself.
And one day when I will have to leave from it, I will do so with gratitude love and appreciation for the life we had together ♥



Happy Healing Friends : )

                                                                                                                                         Your Altair 

◘ SATURNIAN CHILD ~ The Poem ◘

Hear me out, I am a Saturnian Child.
With the wrinkles, I was born, like my skin was already worn
I was little baby blue when I knew, that all of me is into you
My tone was always silent and my face was sad
And the people around me had no clue
What is making me so so blue

My mind was heavy for my age
Took me too soon till the edge
I broke my knees and I broke my pride
I knew back then - Ah, this life will be a ride!
I grew so angry, never really satisfied
Perfection is all I wish to find

Mourning and complaining
' Is it so hard?
Do I want so much? '
How long I have to wait for a blissful touch.
When I finally realised that the door was closed by me
It was time to go
And I didn't tell anyone
what I used to know...







Altair





                                                                                                                                                 

◘ SATURN RETURN ◘

                                                                           I am my own person.

I never truly understood what does this sentence really means.
I didn't know how much weight I carried from my past for so long.
Until my Dear Saturn Return thought me this lesson. ~

I am in a process of my Saturn Return and I can say that this is the first time when I feel no resistance to him. Since I was a teenager I refused to identify with Capricorn's definition in articles.
Every time it was the same story. All about responsibility, a cold, stiff ironic person who loves structure and organizing. Nothing is ever good enough and dislikes changes.
I thought fuck with this shit. I am not like that at all.
Responsibility was my enemy all I saw in my head was dishes, bills and tiring day full of stuff what
I don't wanna do but I have to.
I wanted to stay childlike - careless, free and dutiless. I didn't like the word mature or grown up.
I feared that all it meant was just dull frustrating adult life with no joy, no imagination and magic in it. That's just sounded like everything that I would hate. So, I rebelled against it.
Against everything that represented limitations, stagnation and routine. To work as the employee was the worst experience in my entire life and I couldn't even believe that this is life?
I never wanted to waste time and I liked to rush into things and also out of them.
' I don't have a time ' was my favourite sentence for everything, everyone and definitely for myself.
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When Saturn went to Sagittarius it was like an inner wake up call - I started to feel that my life is a routine what doesn't benefit me. The fire in my Saturn needs me to wake up every morning and feel that the progress I am making, an effort I am doing and time what I am spending is meaningful for me and the larger collective. For my inner world where I see the sunshine at the end of the road because if don't, the fire will burn me down and someone will need to call Pluto to resurrect me :D
That time I had a good job by outside perspective - paid just fine with very good colleagues ( mostly air signs ) so we always had a lot of fun! I was doing a thing what used to be my passion.
[ Photography and film development ] I was happy, but after two years it started to lack the meaning - the meaning of going deeper, higher and wider. It was all sitting in the same vibe all the time.
I felt that I am ready for a new challenge.
As Saturn went to Capricorn [ My Sign ] I felt like I was shaken up and questioned by him.
He was like the long-feared King who came back to his throne, but I am his child and I am in his favour. I was born from his energy when snow was falling down on the Earth and I thrive on this energy today. He isn't my king he is my Father.

It was December last year [ Sagittarius Season ] when this combo made me think what I really love and I always wanted to do in my heart. I was reading through the internet one evening and I found Astrologer Lada Duncheva who I really loved listening to. In her bio, she mentioned that she studied at the London School of Astrology - At that moment I felt like something fell into the right place at the right time. Like the sound of a large puzzle.
I immediately googled them and I decided that I'll do anything to get into this Astrology School as well. I got an answer from the Original School London Faculty of Astrological Studies
[Saturn - Origin and Oldest] with no further delays I was magically starting.
So and there I was on January 13th! A student again who hated school since I was 6. This was a pretty big breakthrough. But didn't take long I fell in Love with Astrology full on!
I felt I belong here and I can freely speak about the truths of life and its hidden meanings.
Saturn Returns always returns us where we need to be.
Correct path if you split away from the original plan. The path what resonates with the most authentic physical manifestation and expression of our soul. Some call it Destiny ;)

So when my Path was set to the right course Saturn has another lesson for me - my 6th House :D
My WORK - Here my Natal Saturn sits in Sagittarius - I left my job and I am currently in a process of standing on my own. Like a little baby horse who is all shaky and dirty, but the green grass calls for a run! Saturn stays in one sign for 2.5 years and as Lada said which I now see in the process is - 'We will wake up in 2020 and realise that NOTHING is the same!' Hell, yes .... yes :)
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When it comes to my inner life - I reached my 30 in January and this year was very special for me.
I grew so much in my mind and I faced so many ups and down and shocking turns around that I feel that I might be actually ready for my Spiritual Year of Maturity [31 in my case] The person, and a girl I was until today tells me from inside that it is time to be my own person.
I feel this to be a bittersweet melody but absolute necessity.
It is call from my Saturn, who is showing me that this is a time when I can transform from a careless rebellious girl into a woman and own who I am and who I will become after this moment.
My time to love myself and take care of my self in ways I was not doing before.
No more of carrying traumas from childhood which I already processed and are invalid, no more patterns of behaviour and thinking from outgrown but familiar habits. No more judgement of what happened to me is ultimate and will mark me for life, no more excuses why I am not living my full potential. No more cutting people off without expressing why or just complete abandonment because that's all I know to do. - Wounds heal guys, nothing is forever...
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The responsibility which Saturn brings isn't the outside world necessity- it is an inner responsibility.
So I am recommitting to my own decision to be alive.
To understand who I came to be and what my life holds in his unlimited form.
It isn't a feeling of forcing or rush. I couldn't do this just by wanting, it had to come from within.
I had to decide that I want myself, for a first time with all my faults and my imperfections and also with the greatness I carry in me.
To have a responsibility means to be aware of the choice I have and that I chose everything in my life once before and I can do it again. With all that happened before in my past till this point made me ME who can say - ' Yes we did this and now we do this consciously and we do it in the beat of our own drum. '

And I will cause Saturn in Sagittarius hand in hand with Uranus in my chart will never let me
lose my inner child. I always will be the girl who believes in magic ~ And Saturn will just help me to manifest it ;)

Life is Mine
I am Mine
And my Time is Now ~

And everyone who just read this lines, Thank You for your time and I wish you all the greatest personal Saturn Return.



Yours
Altair ~